I haven't posted anything for a while because I've been really busy. I don't think Mrs. Brown is even checking this anymore, if she ever really did in the first place. The journalism class dropped the picture journal, and now we're just focusing on the yearbook.
I'm really worried for this yearbook. We have 16 school days left (Technically 14 for the Sophomores, because of our Ashland trip at the end of this month) and there is hardly anything done in it. I sort of just want to spend a whole extra weekend in Mrs. Brown's classroom to finish all of the pages that the rest of the students can't seem to get done.
I don't know why I care so much. I guess I just hate having crappy work on my record. A yearbook I've contributed to can't be incomplete. Seriously. - and, I totally would do extra work on the yearbook.. but I have SOOOO much going on right now. It's really horrible. I am so stressed out. I've never felt this way before. It's so bad, my whole body aches from it. I am so exhausted. I wish I was four people. There is way too much going on for me. I've realized that I can't handle a busy life. I like having time to do nothing. Not being useful is perfectly fine for me. I'm never making this "help everyone" mistake ever again. Well, at least, I don't want to.. but I can't help myself. I'm too kind
:/
:/
This really sucks, because all of my friends outside of Triangle Lake want to see me. They're nagging at me and trying to plan things. I keep not wanting to do anything, because I have so much work in ALL of my classes to finish, but I miss my friends. So, of course, I make the worst decisions and put off my work for a longer time. I've actually put off seeing my friends for a while.
I just have a lot going on, and I'm just... swamped. I just wanted to say something about it, since it IS school-related.
Art project.
I just have a lot going on, and I'm just... swamped. I just wanted to say something about it, since it IS school-related.
Art project.
Yearbook pages.
Late Biology work.
Passing off math.
Finishing resume.
Finishing To Kill a Mockingbird questions.
Earning money for the field trip.
Talking to my mom about my new boyfriend.
Finding something for Father's Day.
Visiting my friend and her baby.
Visiting my bestie.
Going to the high school bash.
Planning for my birthday.
Behaving myself at home.
Catching up on my show.
Talking to my brother's teacher about his work.
Dealing with my completely dead hair.
Staying in touch with my grandmother.
and
Trying to make time to talk to and see my new boyfriend,
all with 10/20 of these things needing to be done in LESS THAN 14 school days.
Trying to make time to talk to and see my new boyfriend,
all with 10/20 of these things needing to be done in LESS THAN 14 school days.
So I have school things stressing me out, and personal things.
Also, about my birthday planning... I'm turning 16, and it bothers me. People expect me to have a big party. I don't want a big party. There's A LOT of stressful things going into that, also, but the biggest is the day when I do it. I want to do it at least a week after my actual birthday, that way everyone is done with school and things and it's hopefully a bit mellow for them, but I don't know if that will work. My aunt is going to be staying with us, and my cousin isn't invited. Also, there's this three-week college opportunity coming up, and it's five days after my birthday, up until july 8th. I have a 4th of July bash I go to at my 3rd cousin's house every year. but I want to do this college thing really bad. But it's $520 for the whole three weeks, and $40 for each credit. It's expensive.
Also, about my birthday planning... I'm turning 16, and it bothers me. People expect me to have a big party. I don't want a big party. There's A LOT of stressful things going into that, also, but the biggest is the day when I do it. I want to do it at least a week after my actual birthday, that way everyone is done with school and things and it's hopefully a bit mellow for them, but I don't know if that will work. My aunt is going to be staying with us, and my cousin isn't invited. Also, there's this three-week college opportunity coming up, and it's five days after my birthday, up until july 8th. I have a 4th of July bash I go to at my 3rd cousin's house every year. but I want to do this college thing really bad. But it's $520 for the whole three weeks, and $40 for each credit. It's expensive.
I want to explode. I have so much on my plate.
Not to mention my part in the Aventa magazine. Jeez. This is all going to kill me
>.<
I've realized how short time really is. I used to think that a month was long... it's not. Three months isn't even that long. I'm like, "oh. Summer will be nice for me, after the stress of planning things dies down." but now. I'll have to do work up until the end of July (because of my bestie's birthday). As soon as I'm finally finished and able to relax, I'll have to start thinking about school again, because I'll have only one month left. Great, right?! !!!!!
Plus, my step grandmother is probably going to want to see me at some point, and I want nothing to do with her. Also, my baby brother and both of my grandparents have birthday's in June. I have to get things for them. and also visit my great grandmother's and father's graves, because they sort of have the same anniversary thingy in june. the day before my birthday. and all of this planning is just running into my school stuff. and I sort of just want to disappear
Gah!!
>.<
I've realized how short time really is. I used to think that a month was long... it's not. Three months isn't even that long. I'm like, "oh. Summer will be nice for me, after the stress of planning things dies down." but now. I'll have to do work up until the end of July (because of my bestie's birthday). As soon as I'm finally finished and able to relax, I'll have to start thinking about school again, because I'll have only one month left. Great, right?! !!!!!
Plus, my step grandmother is probably going to want to see me at some point, and I want nothing to do with her. Also, my baby brother and both of my grandparents have birthday's in June. I have to get things for them. and also visit my great grandmother's and father's graves, because they sort of have the same anniversary thingy in june. the day before my birthday. and all of this planning is just running into my school stuff. and I sort of just want to disappear
Gah!!
* I have no idea if I'm posting anything more or not. Sorry.
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