I'm having an off day. There's only Freshmen and two Sophomores here at school today (Savannah and I) - minus the middle and elementary schoolers. My classes are all empty and different. I'm so tired of everything changing.
This weekend is the Triangle Lake Auction. It's being held in the gym/cafeteria on Sunday. I know I should go, but I can't bring myself to do it. I'm holding back, but not necessarily on purpose. It just doesn't feel right to go. I don't fit in well and I won't be buying anything. There's not really any major reason for me to be there. Plus, Savannah's not going to make it, she has somewhere else to be.. so I wouldn't even have anyone to see.
Last night, my ex-boyfriend and I were thrown into the same chat room on facebook by total accident... and he just flipped out on me. He drives me crazy, and because of him, I've been totally depressed all day. At lunch, I felt sick and couldn't really eat, but I forced myself to. Afterwords, I ended up having a lot of energy and started dancing around and talking to a lot of people... but now I'm back to being less happy. As usual.
I don't really have a purpose for posting today. I just figured you deserved to read something, I suppose. Lately, people have been really nice to me, and honestly, I don't quite understand it. It's nice, though, I guess. Shawn is starting to befriend me more than ever now. It's a little bit odd, but I appreciate his gesture. He told me some things last night that I never really paid attention to when coming from other people... but if a rude boy who ever so suddenly began being kind can see what close people can see... I wonder how many other people have noticed and have wanted to tell me the same thing. He was right, and I know it.
I deserve better.
Last night, my ex-boyfriend and I were thrown into the same chat room on facebook by total accident... and he just flipped out on me. He drives me crazy, and because of him, I've been totally depressed all day. At lunch, I felt sick and couldn't really eat, but I forced myself to. Afterwords, I ended up having a lot of energy and started dancing around and talking to a lot of people... but now I'm back to being less happy. As usual.
I don't really have a purpose for posting today. I just figured you deserved to read something, I suppose. Lately, people have been really nice to me, and honestly, I don't quite understand it. It's nice, though, I guess. Shawn is starting to befriend me more than ever now. It's a little bit odd, but I appreciate his gesture. He told me some things last night that I never really paid attention to when coming from other people... but if a rude boy who ever so suddenly began being kind can see what close people can see... I wonder how many other people have noticed and have wanted to tell me the same thing. He was right, and I know it.
I deserve better.
* Prom? Creeping up on us.
* Triangle Lake Auction news on the way.
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